God has this intense way of molding and shaping our lives into exactly what we need--and want. The intensity of it all is what leaves us a little mind-boggled. After the confusion finally fades, and we're left with nothing but the Lord's direction, clarity and healing come.
I am learning too much about myself right now. Haha. I don't know that that's possible, but it sure is unnerving. I'm on this search for self, for significance, for wholeness...just for me. For who I am and who God wants me to be. And I have never been so agitated and at peace, hurt and loved, broken and complete.
Which is why life is so beautiful. All of these emotions show me my major weaknesses, aspects of my character that have been out of focus, out of the main part of the picture. Not necessary until now. However, embracing these weaknesses makes my life more beautiful. A picture isn't as beautiful without a story along with it, a background. (Am I even making sense? I feel rambles coming, but I'm trying to catch this analogy) The blurs in the background of a picture add to what's really in focus, giving the picture dimension, beauty.
Dimension is being added to my personality, letting my true character come into focus. As painful as it is, I see its necessity in everyday trials. I'm truly allowing God to mold me, make me into His beautiful creation, what He's always had for me. :)
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